love me

you know, i am really coming into an appreciation of the way i see things. i went through this phase where i wanted to try to expand myself creatively to this more "artistic" place...and i still would like to do that. i want to learn & push anytime i can. but lately i have just begun to realize that the way i see things is special too. trite but true, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. you can take 3 images & show them to 50 people & ask each person which image they are drawn to the most & you will get a mixture of response. it causes a struggle when i am shooting & editing because my goal is for my client to love the images as much or more than i do. part of what i do is to create something beautiful for THEM. so i am always trying to step out of what i am drawn to in the images & think about what they will be drawn to. after all, i'm shooting someone THEY love. but in the end, i can only produce images i find pleasing. i am drawn to what i love, just by nature. those images that are full of emotion...excitement in the eyes...or even sadness or anger. it's about a moment for me, rather than a look. although sometimes a moment IS a look.

all i know is i am loving what i do, more & more. i don't feel like i'm an 'artist' as much as i'd like to call myself that. i wish i could think that way & i hate to use the word CAN'T, but it just doesn't feel like it fits me. i feel like more of a journalist...documenting moments. that feels right to me.

i am making a list of new ways i want to challenge myself & goals i want to achieve. ahhh...so much to do! but i am excited :-)